IMG_8962 (Cyanide:Theodora:West)

“Cyanide West”
Abstract Acrylic on Canvas – 2015

I was on an Oz tangent while I was listening to Beck music, as one does – or rather, as I do. It got me thinking about myself in college because I listened to A LOT of his stuff then. I was friends with the “alternative crowd” though I also somehow fit in with the “good, upstanding Christian kids”. I was more than a little confused about myself and where I stood in life. I was also struggling with a lot of things then like an addiction to painkillers (thanks to knee surgeries and andenomyosis) and depression because my mom was dying. Needless to say I made a lot of bad choices and didn’t always appear to be the nicest person – though in my heart I was trying to be a good person.

I also became obsessed with anime and manga. I even went so far as to try to style my hair like an anime character. Another thing I really liked to do was read fantasy books. One of my favorites authors of the time was Gregory Macguire. I particularly like the Wicked series. Like many probably do, I found myself relating to Elphaba -> the wicked witch of the west. I tried to twist myself to fit in where I felt I didn’t belong, those who were the “good ones” often looked down on my lifestyle choices, and the more I learned about the inner workings of humanity the more I began to question it all and found issues that I had against the powers that be. I also found that my escape was often to hop into my car and drive into the woods and there, near nature I could relax, ground myself and reassess my life. It helped to keep me sane.

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