Stephanie is one of my inspirations, no doubt about it! This is true for so many reasons I probably couldn’t even count them all. For instance, Hallyu Back started when she was still only 25 years old, and since then I’ve watched her work her butt off. Me at 25? I was living in California and spending nearly all my free time at the beach or looking for a party.

I feel lucky to know her and have her in my life. But to be truly honest, experiencing the feeling of success for me is a fleeting sentiment. In my life since beginning YouTube, the feeling I get sometimes feels more like failure than success. Why? I’m not exactly sure. It’s just how I feel and the more I think about it, the more it seems unexplainable.

I was just watching Pewdiepie with Steph. In the video we watched he talked a little bit about what it’s like for him to be the biggest YouTube channel on Earth. I suppose it could be easy for any of us who watch YouTube videos to point to him and say he’s successful, or that he’s made it. And essentially he has. But Pewds works his butt off every single day to keep those videos coming. I’m sure he makes mistakes and sometimes feels like a failure too. I can’t know for sure unless I ask him, but he’s human right? We all have this problem to some extent.. right?

Pewdiepie is the largest channel on YouTube, and despite all that he still edits his own videos. He said so in that video. That’s impressive. Take a look at his channel and it’s clear: he uploads at least 1 video a day if not two or three. And he edits all of them? From one editor to another, that’s props bro! BIG BRO FIST from Korea!

Long story short: Whatever you want in life, you have to work hard for it. What’s more, be ready to experience a whole bunch of what some consider ‘failure’ in order to achieve it. Nothing worth having ever comes easy for anyone.

And for me, it still feels like failure sometimes even though others see it as success. Life is weird like that.

  • Nic (MyKoreanHusband)

    I watched that Pewdiepie video the other day and was surprised also that he still edits everything himself. It’s good to take a step back and look at how far you’ve come. Like I still feel like we are very very small but one of the best reminders at how far we’ve come is meeting people who read the comics and the videos and realising how many people enjoy the blog. The numbers aren’t as important as those connections we’ve made. Even though it can be frustrating seeing how much further others are ahead, have to remember how far you’ve come as well. And you guys are doing really really well.

    • Richard

      You and Hugh are doing well too! I just have to keep reminding myself it’s not the destination, it’s the journey. Most of the time I can remember that but it does slip my mind. Thanks for the reinforcing comment Nichola! Hope you and Hugh are doing well!! :)

  • Chelly Wood

    What? You sometimes feel like a failure, you say? You gotta be kidding me! You and Steph are bringing Korea to me and my family, from the comfort of our homes. Between her love of KPop, her crush on Lee Min Ho, and her interest in Hallyu Back, my 13-year-old daughter has been inspired to a.) learn to speak some Korean, b.) set a goal to become an exchange student to Korea, and c.) set her sights on a US college where both veterinary medicine and Korean language are subjects that are taught. You guys at Hallyu Back had something to do with that! Failure? No way.

    • hallyuback

      This is the most inspiring feedback we have heard in awhile! Thank you so much for taking the time to write it and for telling us a little bit about your family. Your daughter sounds like a terrific young lady with a intelligent head on her shoulders and a very bright future! It feels good to know we have had a bit of influence on how others want to lead their lives. We don’t really know about it unless people share their stories with us so we really appreciate it! If you and/or your daughter ever do come to Korea be sure to contact us! We’d love to meet for coffee or something if we’re available! :)

      • Chelly Wood

        Oh, you KNOW we will! We were saying the other day that meeting you guys (and Maki) might be just as cool as meeting Lee Min Ho! (I’m not kidding.) So have your autograph pen handy!

  • RD

    Anyonghasseyo, my mom, Chelly Wood, told me, that she had contacted you and recieved feedback. I was in disbelief until she showed me the conversation at this very web address. Just to clarify, everything she has said is accurate, including the part about loving your youtube channel. I also like a youtube channel called “My Korean Husband”. You and Richard are my afterschool teachers, you know, the famous kind of teachers that have their own youtube channel. I am honored to be noted as “a terrific young lady with a intelligent head on her shoulders and a very bright future”. Thank you for your kind words Stef, and for Richard, all I can say is : Why would you think that you are a failure?! That is near the most strange statement I have heard all week. A failure does not own a youtube channel with thosands of followers.

    • hallyuback

      Wow your kind words mean so much! I remember what is what like to be your age and trying to figure it all out. I wish I would have gotten a head start like you, what with already knowing what you’d like to do when you become a fell-fledged adult. I’m really honored that you find our channel so helpful, it’s my dream to use it to help encourage young girls like you. If you do actually make it to Korea when we’re still here make sure you contact me! I’d love to spend an afternoon with you in Seoul walking around and taking in the sights!