Stephanie is one of my inspirations, no doubt about it! This is true for so many reasons I probably couldn’t even count them all. For instance, Hallyu Back started when she was still only 25 years old, and since then I’ve watched her work her butt off. Me at 25? I was living in California and spending nearly all my free time at the beach or looking for a party.

I feel lucky to know her and have her in my life. But to be truly honest, experiencing the feeling of success for me is a fleeting sentiment. In my life since beginning YouTube, the feeling I get sometimes feels more like failure than success. Why? I’m not exactly sure. It’s just how I feel and the more I think about it, the more it seems unexplainable.

I was just watching Pewdiepie with Steph. In the video we watched he talked a little bit about what it’s like for him to be the biggest YouTube channel on Earth. I suppose it could be easy for any of us who watch YouTube videos to point to him and say he’s successful, or that he’s made it. And essentially he has. But Pewds works his butt off every single day to keep those videos coming. I’m sure he makes mistakes and sometimes feels like a failure too. I can’t know for sure unless I ask him, but he’s human right? We all have this problem to some extent.. right?

Pewdiepie is the largest channel on YouTube, and despite all that he still edits his own videos. He said so in that video. That’s impressive. Take a look at his channel and it’s clear: he uploads at least 1 video a day if not two or three. And he edits all of them? From one editor to another, that’s props bro! BIG BRO FIST from Korea!

Long story short: Whatever you want in life, you have to work hard for it. What’s more, be ready to experience a whole bunch of what some consider ‘failure’ in order to achieve it. Nothing worth having ever comes easy for anyone.

And for me, it still feels like failure sometimes even though others see it as success. Life is weird like that.