Confidence
Acrylic on Canvas – January 2017

I write a lot of messages on mirrors in my house. Its a literal “reflection” if you will. One of the last ones I wrote was about Confidence which I think reminds me of how I created this painting.

Affection – Love – Confidence
You were a good hearted kid.
Punished, called bad for seeking attention and love.
So, you embraced it and strove for perfection – to be the best.
In doing so, gaining the respect of others and yourself.
Self-esteem is underrated.
So few can not care.
When it’s low you try to take it from others

In this case, self-esteem is similar to confidence. While this poem is more about trying to understand someone in my life, it can also reflect on me as well. I feel that we all have issues with self-esteem or confidence. I wish that I could say that I am confident all of the time.. when in all actuality I’ve always struggled with being a “people pleaser”. I want to make people happy – and it’s only through doing YouTube that I’ve learned I have to let that go somewhat because no matter what there will always be people who are unhappy with what you do or say.. or just simply don’t care. If there’s any consolation it’s that I can just “not read” comments when I’m feeling vulnerable or just stay offline.
One thing though, that has really pushed me more than anything is live streaming. It’s live. You can’t run. You can’t just “go offline” or completely ignore that there are people who are literally talking/writing about you to your face. When you start talking and numbers of people watching also drop off, you see it. There’s a real face on the other side of that computer screen. A real person. You are interacting with them – good or bad, whatever their feelings, issues, joys or hurts may be. It can be overwhelming. It can be upsetting. Or it can be something wonderful. And that’s where it comes down to it’s your choice to make of every situation what you want it to be.. and it’s your choice to make something beautiful from every interaction.

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24×36 inches / 61×91 cm